Christmas wasn't all that much fun for me because the one I love.. you remember him... had to be away with his mun. I was so lonely for him. We did manage to chat a time or two, but I couldn't really touch him, and that's torture for me.

It's not that I can't live without sex though I can't, it's more that touching him creates a kind of 'joining' with him that sustains me. We don't have to make love... but when I can simply reach out and touch him, my soul is calmed and I feel much more at peace with my life.

But.. he's home now, and we did get to spend New Year's Eve together. We ate truffles and drank champagne... and it was wonderful that my last kiss of the old year, and my first kiss of the new year, went to my beloved Elijah.

I hope the year ahead sees our love continue to grow. I can't see it any other way.

Happy New Year!

It was a good day today. I sealed a couple deals, did a couple miles on the treadmill, talked to my daugthers, and made love to the most beautiful human being alive.

Sometimes... the fact that he loves me just takes my breath away.

... or at least that's what my agents tell me. Oh well, anything to get the bad taste of Adam Sandler out of my mouth.

Had a sweet and wonderful morning with my beloved Elijah. But then, every morning with him is sweet and wonderful. How could it be anything else? He's so wonderful. We've been together (as lovers) for almost four years now. And my love for him is every bit as strong as it was back in the days when we first hooked up.

I should find something else to talk about. Seems like all I ever talk about is Elijah!

I have got to find him something great for Christmas!

*sighs*

There I go again!

Well, I actually should just say: 'Hi, Elijah!' because you are the only one who will know anything about this LJ.

Been a long day, baby. Mun was swamped at work and is feeling beat. I've felt pretty good, and been thinking of you a lot. Missing you, as always, but mainly thinking about this morning and how wonderful it was to be with you.

Talked to Ally on the phone. She sends her love. So does Elizabeth. Issy gurgled something that I'm sure meant: 'I love Uncle Elijah', but Chris says it was just gas.

See you when you get home, baby. I adore you. And I'll be waiting for you.

Oh... btw.

( Are you not beautiful, my angel? )